wow its been awhile... sorry i havent been on much, school and my boyfriend have kept me rather busy, anyway i love you all especialy john, when u get this, ill try to catch up with u at some time WITH LOVE ALL!!!

omg depressed and angry, between the 15th and 21st of september ive had three!!! yeah three!!! friends die, two were suicides, and the other was a car crash plus my pet budgerygar jinglez of 4 yrs fly away... i have no idea what to do, depressed is the only way to express how i feel... was just starting to express myself and release my feelings again after a VERY hectic and emotional few months, which is impostant because i bottle my feelings up... and then explode... which isnt good but thats how ive learnt to deal with my issues... while looking through some things here on DA, i find someone who has introduced their 13!! yr old step daughter to the harms of the internet... and people yell at me because they think I'M too young... esecially when this young girls i supose you could call him a step dad takes erotic pictures of girls, one of the girls is actually the girls mother... and so for me this is a very touchy subject, nd i protest highly of this form of behavior... but it is none of my business, just state-ing that childeren these days know WAY!!! too much for their age... makes me beleive in a very bleak future for the worlds youth. and makes me so oh so very much more prouder of my deed...(abut a month back 2 friends and i found a wallet on th side of the road, one of them wanted to take the $$ and ditch the wallet, and if it wasnt for me being with our oher friend aswell i woul not have been able to overpower her decision. anyway we took it up to the piggies, and then she calld me and shouted us 3(my friends and i) coffee, the one who wantedto pinch the $$ wasnt able to attend, and she handed me $60 in an envelope, to split between the 3, anyway paul and i decided to split it 2 ways and forget about the other chick... she still hasnt been told.. lolz) and then i think what did i do to deserve such a week as this... its a load of bullox. well in closing, i dont know how much of me you will see of me around here for the moment... i cant write, which sounds weird, but ihave no pourpose when i write atm, and it gets jumbled up and is crap... so i am gon to leave it for a little while.... till i can atleast write again. and pictured... i look stuffed so wont be any of me, and i seriously could not be bothered attempting a formalised image

~ Anyk.

hmm bored enough to follow up with another... im getting into Paint.net but dont quite know all the stuff yet... but im getteing there, and i know enough to do what i want to do... and like i said, my mother hasnt used her acc on DA yet... i think she has forgotten about it... i know i havent... winter has truly set in here... and makes me reconsider wanting to move to sydney... i hear they had snow in melborne... heh... i miss snow... snow was yummy... just stay away from the yellow stuff HAHA ^_^ hehe... anyway why i am talking about yellow snow is beyond me... no progression in the search for the cause of my unnamed 'medical condition' inwhich has prevented my schooling for the past 2 months or so... and school is going back in 3 days... my folks wanna send me back, the docs saying i should... scholl saying NO F#*K OFF YOU CANT BE HERE YOUR A F#*KING LIABILITY im so stuck i dont wanna go back, i dont get the stupid work and i dont WANT to either, id get a job but the same thing preventing my schooling is preventing a job too... but at the end of the day im still alive... that a good thing... right??? cause sometimes... i senceirly doubt it... oo my eyes hurt.. early mornings late nights, its not doing me any good... ill be off now... and i may or may not update this in the future

wow.. i swore never to do a journal... meh.. ok i wanted to write this to explain why i pulled three or so images from my page... my parents have taken an 'interest' into what i do online and who i am portraying myself as, and so they had a look at my page here on DA. and noticing 'a touch of sass' and a few of the other images ive posted... they demanded that i take them down till a later date...(that being after i turn 16.) and so to keep 'tabs' on me, my mother has joined DA. not that she will actually use it i think it was more proving a point to me that she can do what ever she wanted and i couldnt stop her... so my dear old sweet mother has joined DA. and is watching me.... haha lol... ROCK ON wait for later installments... maybe... haha